Embracing Gratitude: Finding the Beauty in Chaos.

I get to lie with my little girl, again. She’ll flail her four-year-old legs, again, she’ll tell me she’s not tired. Many, many times.

But I get to do this. I get to feel her tiny thumb slide up and down my elbow. I get to feel a too-big kiss placed upon my cheek once, and twice more after that.

Yesterday, I had to do those things.

Today, I decided differently for us both.

The problem is always the future. It’s always my expectations and hopes, and how, if I wasn’t lying beside my flailing daughter, I could be doing other things. But really, the future, or my plans for it, are not helping me in the moment my daughter needs me.

That’s why I get to decide.

I get to change my view, from have to, to get to.

It’s all about gratitude, and focusing on a perspective that helps me feel good, rather than bad. And she’s so much happier knowing she’s got a Mum whose energy wants to be there with her, rather than a Mum whose energy is already half way out the door.

Tomorrow, I may go back to ‘have to’. I am human, after all.

But ‘get to’ feels good, for today.

‘Get to’ is the beauty in chaos.

(Today is the first day of a month long writing challenge I’m setting, to help bring this beautiful bloggy home back to the forefront of my mind. You are so welcome to join me until the 14th of March comes around. I may not appear on days where life feels too much, in the spirit of self care. But most days, I’ll be here. xx Brooke)